So, Just Who The Hell Am I?

Honestly, I'd have thought the in-depth section of this blog which is devoted to information about myself would have been enough to satisy anyone's curiosity.

You know, the bit that says "I'm in my 20s and live in England." What more could you want!? :)

Well, ok, I suppose I could get just an eeny-weeny tad more specific.

I'm in my mid-twenties.

How's that? Oh, ok, fine, fine! I'm in my mid-twenties, my name's John, and I live in the North of England.

And that's true. Except for my name being John and living in the North of England.

I decided (for obvious reasons) to remain fairly anonymous when I started this blog. Of course, if someone who knew me (i.e. the wife) read it, there's likely enough identifiable information sitting in here anyway, so I might as well not worry about prattling on a little more.

I have a technical job for a small company. I love my job - it's something I always knew I wanted to do, and I'm good at it. Over the last few years there is always more work to do, and it is more stressful than it used to be. Whilst I still enjoy my job, it does feel tiresome sometimes to be at work all day and feel stressed, only to come home and continue to feel stressed.

It's strange in some ways, because only a few (several) years ago, everything seemed so perfect. Back then, I felt I had three shining points in my life.

A fantastic girlfriend (my wife)
A perfect job (the same one)
A home

When I began thinking about a blog (some months before I actually started it), I kept thinking of things I was considering saying in it (if I were to start one, which, as you know, I did)

The starting subject I decided to pick was gazing out of my window all those years ago, staring in awe upon the stars.

But I also came up with another possible starting thought:

My triangle has broken, and I can no longer see the stars.

The fact that stars also featured in that thought is only a coincidence. I have no big thing for stars (although I do think that they, and the night, are pretty cool sometimes).
I had been thinking about those three bright points - shining brightly like stars. And there were three of them. Like a triangle. It doesn't take a genius to work out how I came up with that line ;)
At the time, the stress of the rapidly approaching marriage and the work-load in my job all just started to get me down (The house we live in being somewhat related to my wife, of course).

I haven't felt quite so stressed at home these last few weeks. I think that the fear of "Should I be saying no?" was cause for a lot of worry. I'm still worried about things, but it doesn't feel quite as bad now.