Itsa Bitsa!

Does anyone remember that programme? I think it came along by the time Tony Hart had stopped doing stuff really. I think I was a little old for it by then, but my sister liked it.

Anyway, this is a bit of a "bitty" post :) But I can't remember why. I was GOING to start writing it a few hours ago, but one thing led to another, and that led to something else, and then that thing led me back to the first thing which had led me onto the other one, and frankly it all got a bit confusing after that.

Nuhmbar three tonight... It was ok. 1 bedroom, not a poor size (not great), location not bad. BUT, not available until around middle of December, AND, this is advertised at the same price as #1 I saw today.
Hmmm, that's a difficult comparison... #1 has double the bedrooms, and both the main bedroom and the living room are larger... Oh wait, not so difficult after all ;)

So, as it was only 5 mins away from #1, I swang back there on my way home. Just to "scope it out" at a different time. I got out the car and had a tiny wander. Nothing struck me as wrong. Can hear the main road all of the time, but I don't think it would be an issue. So, I think it shall be my intention to pursue it some more :)

As for how I'm feeling about the whole process at the moment in terms of the "relationship" aspects... I'm not feeling much. I think there's that element of concentrating on the "doings" so not being aware of it. I don't know though, hard to tell ;) As for Mrs Monkfish, we were talking about it earlier and she said she has started to realise that yes, it looks like I really might be going.
"Yes," I said, "I am."

The conversation started by her asking her what needed to change while I was away for me to arrive at whatever decision. I said I think it wasn't so much about change at the moment, so much as time. To work out where I want to be.
Wanting more solid things to work with than that, she asked about this and that, and I went over some examples I had given before and some new ones.
For example, I don't really mind what she eats, but she does eat excessively at the moment; it would be nice to see that solved (It is a shame - this time last year, she was en route to arriving at the lightest she has been since I've known her - she has now returned to the heaviest - she tried so so hard, and it's such a shame to see all that effort wasted, and, of course, it upsets her too).

Slightly smaller things included the TV. She had her therapy tonight. After she left, I turned the TV off. I don't really like it on when I'm not watching something specific, as I tend to watch whatever rubbish is on. The moment she got back in, she turned it on, without considering I may have wanted it off.
Now, the tricky part, is that overall, I'm not strongly opinionated on this in itself. After all, if she wants something on and I don't, then I simply wouldn't bother arguing because I don't care that much.
The problem comes from the fact that on a daily basis, I really don't mind all that much. But when you take a whoooole lot of days and stick them all next to each other, you do think, "Well, I wish she'd think of my viewpoint for a change".

Same thing with takeout food. I don't mind it occasionally. She knows I don't really like it though (I'm not especially keen on the food, nor am I especially keen in spending the money on it), but I really can't be bothered to argue that anymore. I can't be bothered to put up with the guilt & unhappiness (she tends to almost feel punished by this) at saying I don't want it.

Sorry wasn't really intending to rant specifically, but I think I did so ;) And I was planning to rant on a different subject!

Ordered a new GPS box recently to connect to my PDA (had one before, lost it - don't ask). Ordered the bit that gets the signal and a car mount for my PDA, both off of eBay.
The GPS thingy itself arrived today. The car mount people sent me an e-mail to tell me it wasn't in stock.

THEN WHY DID YOU PUT IT ON EBAY? Huh? :) Honestly. :) AND I know it said "In Stock" on the auction item at the time. What a fun waste of time ;)

Oh dear, been rambling far longer than I intended, best stop, time for bed :)